{Less Than} 3 Weeks Out til Junior Nationals!

Hi friends!

I’m a mere 19 days from stepping onstage at the NPC Junior Nationals in Chicago, IL.  I fly to the Windy City for the first time in my life on June 14.  This is a big deal for me because it’s my first time competing at the national level.  National competitions provide an opportunity to earn your IFBB Pro Card, which allows you to then compete at the PRO level!  Very few pro cards are handed out.  You’ve got to be the best-of-the-best, and it usually takes competitors several attempts at national shows before they turn pro.

All I know is:   I’ve put my heart and soul into training and prepping for this competition, and I my only goal to look better than ever before.  

Final exams for my 1L year wrapped up a couple of weeks ago, but the fun didn’t end (*sarcasm*).  I breathed a sigh of relief after submitting my last final… then started preparing for the Write-On Competition.  This competition is an attempt to earn a spot on one of the three prestigious journals at my law school, and it is a beast.  Fortunately it must be turned in tomorrow night so the pain is almost over, but it’s been challenging to find any leftover motivation after a grueling set of final exams.

On a brighter note, I did a really fun fitness photo shoot with James Patrick (check out his website;  he’s very talented!).  In the past I have done a couple of “just-for-fun” shoots, and I didn’t love the results, but I was amazed at the shots from James.  Here are some of them:


I hope to slowly begin creating a portfolio of fitness images to submit to magazines.  As my friends know, I’m pretty shy, so putting myself out there in this way isn’t easy for me, but I’m workin’ on it!

Training is going great.  I love being at the gym for so many reasons:  seeing familiar faces of the trainers who work there, stress release, thinking about only my workout (and not the Write-On Competition!), seeing new muscle definition in the gym mirrors, increasing the weight I use each week as I grow stronger… I cannot live without these sensations.

I know some of you are thinking, “Are you serious…?” when I say this, but being in the gym, sweat pouring into my eyes, is a meditative and beautiful experience.  

Well, speaking of the gym, it’s time to go lift some shoulders (my favorite!) and do round 2 of cardio.  I hope everyone is having a happy Memorial Day weekend.  Shoot me a message on Facebook or comment below with what you’ve been up to in terms of reaching your fitness/health goals.


The Story of Me and Food

Hi guys!

It’s final exam time so I should be studying, but I wanted to take a break to talk about a topic that plagues just about everybody – your relationship with food.

I’ve struggled with this issue for a long time.  starting around 7th grade when  I began receiving Victoria’s Secret catalogs in the mail.  This is the ideal woman,” I thought to myself.  I decided to do whatever it took to become rail-thin like the models.   I started running around my neighborhood and tracking calories obsessively.  At my lowest point, I was only consuming about 600 calories per day, neatly written on a food tracking chart.

When I decide I want something, I commit to it one-hundred percent.  Sometimes that’s a good thing.  But around age 15-16, my goals were completely unhealthy.  In fact, I don’t even know what I wanted – to look in the mirror and think “I look good”?  Because let me tell you, I never, ever thought that.  

My habits kept becoming more dangerous until I hit a low weight of around 110 lbs at 5-foot seven inches tall.  Finally my parents intervened.   I know it must have been really difficult for them to watch their daughter destroy herself, and even tougher to discuss the topic.  I reluctantly saw a counselor.  This was the point when I became aware of my unhealthy behavior, but my obsession with being skinny didn’t stop.

My fixation on being runway-model-skinny continued throughout the rest of high school and the first couple years of college.

Then, things changed. 

One day while looking through the magazine racks for my usual Shape or Self to look at while plowing through 45 dreadful minutes on the elliptical, I discovered Oxygen magazine.  This magazine was the catalyst that changed my life.  Oxygen emphasizes that strong is beautifulSkinny is unhealthy.  Additionally, it’s not just about what’s outside that counts – the health of your heart, lungs, brain, liver, digestive system, etc. are even more important.

In Oxygen I discovered the world of fitness competitions, where the fittest women in the world step on stage to show the world the product of countless hours spent sculpting their body and eating the cleanest diets possible.  I continue to be amazed by these women and I hope to have a long life in the fitness competition industry.

Today, my relationship with food has changed and improved tremendously.  What I know now:

  • Food is fuel for my intense workouts and for the recovery and growth of my muscles.
  • Food is also medicine – it truly can heal you from the inside out.
  • 8,000 hours of cardio won’t get me an awesome body

I still struggle with some “balance issues” – like having a moderate cheat meal instead of binging on an entire pizza – but I’m doing much better.

What’s your relationship with food?  Is it healthy?  Have you struggled with eating issues?  I would love your feedback on this topic.  Feel free to send me a message on Facebook with your experiences with this topic.  And have a wonderful week!